PART 2 - recent hormone journey feb. 23

I took my provider's advice.. I DIDN'T LISTEN TO MY BODY AND MY INNER KNOWING.

Something was "off".. and I knew it.

A few months go by - the 2nd pill helps BUT .. not overly and doesn't get me back to what is "normal".. BESIDES the fact = I don't want to HAVE TO TAKE SOMETHING TO GET ME CLOSE TO NORMAL.

My MOUTH STARTS FEELING FUNNY.

Dry.. Cotton mouth DRY.. which is very very rare for me.

I TYPICALLY DRINK 2 L OF WATER DAILY.. On a great day - I consume 3L of water..

I DO NOT experience.. Dry mouth. UNTIL NOW.

The dry can even be described as "burning"..

So - I go down the rabbit holes of drug side effects and such.. however, this ADD pill I've used and all items (supplements included) I was taking was consistent for 4+ years. Probability is LOW.

I KNOW when ESTROGEN LOWERS.. your brain processing speed DECREASES.. your brain PROCESSING IN GENERAL DECREASES.. your brain memory RECALL DECREASES.

I DID NOT KNOW.. WHEN ESTROGEN LOWERS.. AND KEEPS LOWERING.. YOUR MOUTH CAN BECOME DRY.. AND EVEN HAVE THESE BURNING SENSATIONS.

I'm like you. Life keeps going.. whether I'm 100% or not.. and I keep moving.. the holidays come.. and speed it all up.. WINTER IS NOT MY FAVORITE.. I feel FLAT. I feel more DEPRESSED THAN NORMAL.. I am NOT OKAY overall.. even though quite a few of normal stressors are better.

I TEST MYSELF FOR HORMONES. I use specialty testing and because of my licenses .. I can do it for myself.. I can do it for you. We do live in a country with certain freedoms... (still).

and NOW - I DISCOVER.. My body HAS HIT BOTTOM LOW LEVELS OF HORMONES. ESTROGEN FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE.. IS NEAR 0. IT REGISTERS AT 0.9!!!

and I'M PISSED. I'm pissed at myself for not listening to my inner knowing 9 MONTHS AGO.. when I could have at least MAINTAINED AND PREVENTED THE BOTTOM.. and I'm pissed I WASN'T LISTENED TO.. AND I EVEN KNOW BETTER THAN THAT.